Mis(ery)souri Can't Have My Strength

Hello... back so soon? Why yes, yes I am. See what I mean about living at the mercy of your emotions? I'm a victim.
After a couple days of literally and metaphorically sitting on the floor feeling sorry for myself, not being able to move, I've been overtaken. Sometimes we, as humans become overcome with sadness or frustrations to the point where all that's left is weakness. Weakness isn't such a terrible thing either though. It's painful, for sure, but necessary as well. Without weakness, we couldn't have strength.. and what a terrible thought to think of the world without strength.
Anyway, back to the floor of my closet.. where we last left off. You know that phrase that optimists and pessimists alike everywhere love?.. something like, "You have to hit rock bottom before you can go up". Sometimes I can't quite wrap my head around that. What exactly is rock bottom? Can you be at the bottom more than once? It some ways, it just seems like a dirty trick, in the way that is makes people believe rock bottom is that one time in your life where everything's gone to shit. And you can only have one rock bottom... so choose it wisely.
How ridiculous.
I sat on the floor, and staring back into my tear-filled eyes was strength. Call it a higher power, God, the other version of myself I fight with much too often, or even Mother Nature tending to a lost soul. Call it what you will.. it got me off of the floor.
Sometimes, you have to step outside of yourself in order to get the full view of your reflection. I am a human, a woman, queen to only myself. I make the rules. That being said, I have reserved the right to feel completely and utterly sorry for myself. Sometimes it's necessary to see, feel, even adapt to the weakness that creeps up, and overcomes you when life is far too unfair, and unfit for this queen.
I'm not sure if I've hit rock bottom. It feels more like I give in to my screaming emotions before I touch down. Maybe I float? Bounce? Whatever it is, I certainly don't, and won't let myself sit there for long.
Back to my journey... back to my throne.