fresh.

yo, yo, yo.  It's been a while.. but summer vaca is coming to a close... and this is definitely a summer worth remembering.  I told myself coming into this summer, that I would not go back to anything I'd ever done before.  I wouldn't go back to working at the deli.  I wouldn't move back home.  I wouldn't spend another precious moment of my time in a place I can't stand.  

But then... I did.

Something happened... life.  You know... that thing that happens when you're planning something else.  I came home feeling defeated... then woke up a little, and started to appreciate what I do have.  Now... about six weeks later... I'm living at home, and working at the damn deli.  HA ironic?...

I love it.  I love my job (which it hardly is).  I hang out with fun people all day and eat. :)  I get to relax with my family... and swim with the fish on weekends.  I'm beginning to realize that I put more energy into hating where I'm from than just enjoying the ride.  I pride myself on becoming more and more open to the world... and all the people in it, yet my eyes seem to be eternally closed when it comes to the place where it all started- where I started. 

So, I guess this summer has re-taught me the basics.  That I am loved, and blessed to the core.  And that I can be cruising down the road to perfection with a smile on my face... but eventually, I'm gonna hit that wall, fall for a minute, then shake it off and stagger off to a new path.

... and once I end up exactly where I'm supposed to be, I'm going to look back on this summer and laugh. hard. :)